Divorce you are stupid. You come here with your dividing lines and hurt and anger and deep, sharp pain and punch me in the gut when I least expect it. Divorce, you are the ugliest. You are vile and egotistical and a disgrace to the sanctity of marriage. I hate you, Divorce. Go away. Don't come back another day.
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Oh, Heaviness of Heart, you are troublesome. You keep me up at night and weigh me down in the "mourning". I hate you too.
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I miss his family. They were MY family in the truest since of that word. And Divorce is going to ruin that too.
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I've known them for ten years; we were married for half that time. This isn't happening anymore, PLEASE, oh Heaviness of Heart.
Please go away, please just leave me alone. Please, I just want to wake up from this nightmare.
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I'm tired of being "strong". I'm tired of feeling hurt and then attacked with claims that I am just playing the "victim". Dear vast majority of men and women in the world: having emotion and feeling pain does NOT make you weak! But burying it sure does make you emotionally irresponsible. So let's stop that already, okay? Good.
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I love(d) him for so long, so deeply, so blindly, so uncompromisingly.
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Divorce is horrid*. And a pathetic escape with a child involved. And I can say that because I am getting one. It was thrown in my lap..but I played my part in creating it, so it is mine just the same.
* Of course, there are exceptions but bleh.
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Fine, I'll back to being zen. Ha. Ha. Hahahaha. Just kidding.
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I am pissed off folks. I am somewhat done hiding that part of this process.
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